I’m starting to really hate my fucking job so much now. Every day that I’m to work security, it is never anything different. They send me to these god forbidden government section low-income family apartments. There I sit on a concrete curb or if I’m lucky a thrown out coach that no one wanted anymore. If I’m just so lucky to have anything like that happen, I’m forced to sit there from 8-13 depends if they are short handed or not, and if no one shows up. I get to stay there for a few extra ranging 1-2. *moans* Rooooooooooar-ah! It don’t really bother me to do such kind of shift, if only I was able to do something constructive besides walking around once a hour. Really that is a lot fucking hours that I could be using to draw! My artwork would be so much better, but no. Someone save me from this hell whole of a job of working security.

Speaking of artwork, I think that some of it could have been a lot better then before. Some of the ideal that have been going threw my head are just wonderful. But, when ever I sit my self down to start drawing those ideals. Nothing, absolutely nothing come out the way I want it to. It is really frustrating to keep having artist block, more then what it should be. Maybe I’ve not been able to find the right setting or mood, most of all when I was at work. That or there is no supporting fans or a love one, now that I think about. Lyn must be feeling the same way her self, I’ve not been support of her in such a long time.. aww man I a horrible boyfriend.. I’ll start showing her how much I care and push her to keep on going that extra distance… wow.. I can’t even name a signal character in any of her stories or mangas that she has written or drawing. Ahh crap! I’ve never even read a soul comic of her… ahhhaha.. ohh I am such a horrible boyfriend **Runs to read all of them***

I cant’t help my self anymore or keep these kind of information in. I’ve been dating Lyn for over a year now and there has been so much that has happen between the two of us. Never has there be once a event that we could not over come. When the other person is feeling down, or something bad has happen to the other. We help pull each other out of that mess and it really is a great experience. I like the ideal of spending my time with someone that shares a lot of my likes along with things that I dislike. This girl means a lot to me. I LOVE YOU LYN!! **recived 50,000 ass kissing/suck up pts.** WOOOT